EP221: The Thought That's Running Your Leadership (And You Don't Even Know It)
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I want you to think about a moment that happened recently.
Maybe it was in a meeting. Maybe it was a conversation with someone on your team. Maybe it was a decision you had to make where you didn't fully show up — where you held back, where you said the safe thing, or maybe you said nothing at all. Where you went home and thought: I should have said something. I should have done something differently.
Stay with that moment for a second.
Because here's what I know about it: it wasn't about skill. You knew what to do. You've probably known what to do for a while.
But there was a thought in the background — quiet enough that you might not have even noticed it — and it made the safe choice feel like the only choice. It made holding back feel like the wise thing to do instead of naming what it actually was: fear.
That thought isn't new. It's been shaping your decisions, your voice, your relationships at work for longer than you'd probably like to admit. And today, we're not going to dig into where it came from. We're just going to look at it. Name it. And figure out what to do with it.
Nine Thoughts That Might Be Running Your Leadership
See if any of these land for you.
"I have to know the answer before I speak." So you stay quiet in the meeting — and then become very brilliant on the car ride home. You wait until you've thought it all the way through, and sometimes you just never say it at all. The idea dies in your head.
"I'm the only one who can do this right." So you do it yourself, again and again. You tell yourself it's faster, it's easier, it's just how it has to be. And somewhere in the back of your mind you know you're building a team that's stopped trying to meet your standard — because they know you're going to redo it anyway.
"I don't want to burden anyone else." So you carry it. The stress, the workload, the problem you've been turning over in your head for two weeks. You tell yourself you're protecting people. But you're also making yourself an island — and the people who would actually want to help don't even know there's a door.
"If I'm too direct, they'll think I'm too much." So you soften it. You add qualifiers. Well, I might be wrong, but... or I'm sorry if this is off base, but... You know your stuff — but you soften it anyway. And you leave the conversation wondering why you didn't just say what you actually meant.
"I don't want to seem like I think I'm better than them." So you make yourself smaller. You downplay your title, your experience, your opinion. You're approachable — but sometimes approachable has become a way of avoiding the moments that actually require you to lead.
"If I share my thoughts, someone might not agree." So you read the room first. You figure out what people want to hear and find a way to want that too. You've gotten very good at consensus. What you're less sure about is whether any of those thoughts were actually yours.
"I don't want them to get mad at me." So you avoid. The hard conversation. The clear expectation. The honest feedback. And you certainly don't want anyone to look at you as less than amazing.
"If I show uncertainty, I'll lose their respect." So you perform confidence you don't always feel. You give answers when you should be asking questions. And your team, without you realizing it, has learned not to bring you their uncertainty either.
"If I actually go for it and fail, there's no excuse." So you hold something back. You put in real effort — but not a hundred percent. Because if you give it everything and it still doesn't work, what does that mean about you? Staying just a little bit back from your full potential is actually a protection strategy. It looks like caution. It feels like realism. But what it's actually doing is making sure you never have to find out what you're truly capable of.
And one more: "I don't actually see myself as a leader." You have the title. People come to you with questions and decisions. And yet there's a part of you that feels like you're still figuring it out — like everyone else got the memo that you missed. You're doing the job but you haven't fully become it yet. And that gap between what your business card says and what you believe about yourself? Your team feels it. Even when you think you're hiding it.
What These Thoughts Are Costing You
These thoughts don't just live in your head. They show up every single day — in real moments, with real people, with real consequences.
That team member who needed honest feedback from you? They're still waiting. Still unclear. Still not growing the way they could be. Because the thought that made you hold back felt more important in the moment than their development did.
That idea you didn't pitch? Someone else will. Or it just won't happen. Either way, your voice wasn't in it.
The people who work with you every day aren't getting the version of you that you're capable of being. They're getting the version of you that your thought allows.
I'm not saying this to make you feel bad. I'm saying it because I think you already know it. That's probably why you're here — because somewhere in you, you're aware of the gap between the leader you are and the leader you know you can be.
That gap has a name. It's the thought.
Three Moves You Can Do Today
Move 1: Write it down in plain language. Not I struggle with confidence — but the actual thought. The specific one. The one that would be a little embarrassing to say out loud. I don't think they're going to respect me. I'm afraid I'm going to get found out. I don't actually know what I'm doing. Write it down exactly as it sounds in your head. When it lives in your head it's foggy. When you write it down it becomes a sentence — and you can see it for what it is. And please: don't judge yourself for it. Just get it out.
Move 2: Ask it one question. You have two options. The first: Is this actually still true? Most of these thoughts were formed in a different job, a different environment, with a different leader — and you've been carrying them into every room since, including rooms where they don't belong anymore. Ask it: is this still true right now, in this role, with these people? And if you're not sure: what is the evidence that shows me otherwise?
The second option — one of my favorites: What would I do right now if I didn't believe this? Not some future version of yourself. Right now. If that thought wasn't there, what conversation would you have? What would you say in that meeting? What would you stop waiting for? The answer to that question is usually exactly what you need to do next.
Move 3: Do one thing. Something small. This week. One thing that thought has been blocking. Have the conversation you've been postponing. Say the thing in the meeting. Delegate the project. Send the email. Raise your hand.
Not because it will fix everything. Because the thought loses power the moment you act in spite of it. Every time you do the thing anyway, you are building evidence against the thought. You are proving it wrong with your behavior. You don't have to believe something different to act differently. You just have to act. The belief catches up.
The Thought Is a Lie
That thought you're carrying — it's not the truth. It feels like the truth. It's been around long enough that it probably feels like just how you are. But it's not. It's a story that got very comfortable living in your head.
And like any story — it can be rewritten. Not all at once. Not perfectly. But one conversation, one meeting, one action at a time.
You are already the leader. The thought just hasn't caught up with you yet.
That's where the magic is.
What Do You Think?
What’s the thought you’d be most embarrassed to admit is running your leadership right now? And what has it cost you?
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